Risk ...

To love is to risk not being love in return

To hope is to risk disappointment

But risks must be taken becoz the greatest risk in life is to risk not.

love begets love

The best thing about being In love

Is having someone to share everything with.

To share your Insecurities and strengthens with.

It lets you completely remove any separation that exists

between you and another person.

When you feel in love and when you're in love that's a great place to be.

He's All.... tht I've known.

daddy dearest ...

Shei ...

You are like no other,

no comparison to any other.

Don't want it to end like that.

B,

forgiveness I seek

regretness followed with it.

Don't obstinate this action of yours

this heart still hurts,

And it is still hurting.

Your silence is deafening, B.

Speak,

there's a voice crying out loud within you.

It wants to be heard,

why can't you let yourself out.

What are you afraid of?

Hurt?

Being hurt, b ...

I am hurt ...

so.. hurt, by you, b.

Please ... your voice, I want to hear.

To tell, what you've been keeping within.

Speak, b.

I am listening ...

Te quiero, mi amor ...

A Special World

A special world for you and me

A special bond one cannot see

It wraps us up in its cocoon

And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold

Gently nestling us to the fold

Like silken thread it holds us fast

Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break

A new one forms in its wake

To bind us closer and keep us strong

In a special world, where we belong.

Mother's Love ...

Mom ...

Where were you, when i needed you most?

Why did you leave when i was still little,

Dad, was there... not all the time.

But, it's him that i've known all my life.

Dad, took over your place, after you left.

He was lost,

donno wat to do with me when you were gone.

Dad, did his best that he could to watch me grow.

He never spoke about you.

Neither did you.

Mom...

There's no need for forgiveness to ask.

I will understand whatever your reason was.

Though, your reason for leaving you never spoke about.

But you can't expect a mothers' and a daughter relationship in any time.

Coz, i have learnt to live without you and without your love.

Mom...

All my friends and people i've known have a mom, unlike me.

You left me crying in silence, wishing that i have my own, like the others'

But, it's okay mom, Allah had a bigger plans for us.

I accept that with open arms.

I will never question Almighty for his action and this destine that's designed for us.

But mom ...

Rest assure, i always have you in my prayers.

May Allah forgive you for that you did intentionally or unintentionally.

I'm sure there's some regrets in you for doing what you've done.

Don't worry mom,

Though i have no interest in you, like how i have for dad,

You are and you will always be my mom who brought me in,

into this world.

Jazakhallahu khairan, oh ummi.

May Allah have mercy in your soul and reward your other kindness.

Letting go...

I'm letting you go ...
No ...!
I don't want to.
But I am ...

I want you to be happy ...
Wherever you take yourself to be.




Just be careful out there ...

Heart,

Restless heart; ponder no more ...
Let not the mind, wonder why ...
Calm the nerves, with a tender touch ...
Ease the eyes, to close no more ...

Vision the world with clarity ...
Chaos of the past, compact in a bulk ...
Set the soul free ... to wonder where he desires
Don't let hatred and pain, hesitate your movement.

The restless heart ...

Oh, unthankful heart of mine

Why can you not be glad

With the treasures you are filled

Why do you beat so sad Be calm and ponder

My, wondering restless one

Remember after the storm

There will always be the sun Deceitful empty shell you are

Closed with darkness and cold

Just lift your shad a tiny bit

Then the light will show.

Pictured you in a frame ...

Set me free...

Set me free, dear me ...

Let it go, and just go ...

Leave the past as it is ...

Live in this present as it comes.

..............

With no thoughts of yesterday ...

He moved on ... what about you?

It's never easy letting go of the past.
Whatmore, if it's not you, who call it quits.
Coz, you didn't see it coming ...
Coz, you never thought, there's isn't any criss that cannot be ironed out.
And becoz, you both painted a picture with no patches that none of you ever think, will lose sight of.

He moved on already ...
What about you?
What is that you are hanging on to ...

It's been months already ...
You didn't keep track, becoz
You didn't feel time passing by you ...
Why are you still burning that flame for him, in you ...

He's elsewhere ...
Living his life ...

Don't be sad ...
Don't live this life in stillness ...

Why are you sad?
What is that you are holding on to ...

You said you'll never go back ...
Not in a million years ...
Then, what is that keeping you this way?
What is it that you are achieving by doing all this?

Don't be sad ...
Live your life ...
And, take your time ...

A dreamer will say " there's always someone for everyone"
It's not just a saying,
It's a positive thinking and there's truth in it.

He's not a trophy that's worth attaining.
You've got nothing to lose ...
Not unless you waste this life with regrets, hurt and pain.

Live life ...
There's more to it,
Than just this ...

All the more...

The one who brings the worst out of you
All the more, you should stay away from them ....

Nobody's Perfect....

Love is not about finding the right person
But, creating the right relationship.

It's not how much love you have in the beginning
But, how much love you built to the end.

Not today ...

There's nothing i want to do
To hear your voice again.

There's nothing i want to do
To keep you here with me, not ever again.

THE KRISPY KREME

It was REAL GOOD.. yum! Burrrpss!
Goooood....

The 4 bru..

No offence taken...

I appreciate the honesty ...
Bear no grudges to scarcasm ...
You are entitled to voice your tots ...
Doesn't matter if it protrudes deepen than it already has ...

You are who you are ...
I've no qualms about that.

How you've put it,
You've put it from the best interest of your heart.
No worries ... my dear fren.
Everything's cool...
Just seeking my time out.
Burnt my energy ...
Just needed the time to catch up with all the loss of sleep.

No need for an apology seek ...
Silence and avoidance Is,
Just my way of dealing things.
Don't wish to ruin anything that has been built between Us.
I took no offence ...
Don't misjudge me.

You are a great friend Indeed.
Do not wish to trouble you more than you already have been.
Will come out of it .... in no time.

It's best to hear it from the horse's mouth.
Rather than a whisper blew into your ear.

Gato ... missing in my OWN home!

Bunny is hitting on Kiki ...
He flipped her over and rolled her.
Shame! she must hv been petrified.
Kiki remained still ... she looked frozen in her pose.
Shocked and clueless!

As for Gato!
I turned away to break bunny and Kiki up.
Quickly put her in her room.
To my disbelief,
I cudn't find Gato anywhere .... NOWhere!

The last time i saw him, he was cruising his curiousity into the deepest passage along the edge of my humogous fridge.

I was frantic!
Calling out for him ...No reply ...
Ringing the collar bell ... still nothing!

I f* moved the fridge.
Moved it out of its place to see if Gato was caught in between the small compartment wer the wires and motor is running ...
Still despair...

I opened all the kitchen cupboard, still plain.
But they were all close and shut, when i put Kiki in her room.
None of the kitchen cupboard was open.

Went to the living area ..
To the bedroom ... still in no vain.

Finally, i decided to wait.
Hoping that he will squeal.
Still nothing ...
How the hell can i lose a kitten in my own home?!
And nowhere to be found.

Bunny hasn't really made these two as his best pal ... not yet.
To my astonishment, bunny and Gato were chilling at bunny's favourite spot in the KITCHENCUPBOARD, where i was searching, i think, with my nose!

So relief ... finally, found him ... all that in 20 mins.
I could hv died! Thk God! The last time i checked my heart, it was in pieces!, i think its back in a piece and FUNCTIONING!
Ouch!

No one but me ...

I blame no one but just me.
For all that befall, was just plain me.

I miss you

Ho...
Hey...ey...ey...ey...
N-n-n-n-no, no

It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said I’ve been needin’ you,
wantin’ you
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

I miss you

Off to college, yes, you went away
Straight from high school you up and left me
We were close friends, also lovers
Did everything for one another

Now you’re gone and I’m lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow

Come back to me (To me)
Can you feel me (Callin’)
Hear me callin’ for you (For you)
‘Cause it’s

It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said I’ve been needin’ you,
wantin’ you (Woo...ooh...ooh...)
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

Now I’m sittin’ here thinkin’ ‘bout you
And the days we used to share
It’s drivin’ me crazy, I don’t know what to do
I’m just wonderin’ if you still care

And I wanna let you know that it’s killin’ me
I know you got another life, you gotta concentrate,
baby

Come back to me (To me)
Can you feel me (Callin’)
Hear me callin’ for you (For you)
‘Cause it’s

It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said I’ve been needin’ you,
wantin’ you (Baby)
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

I miss you

It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
What am I gonna do, I’ve been needing you, wantin’ you
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes (Yeah)

I miss you


I-I-I-I-I-I
I-I-I-I-I-I
I miss you
I-I-I-I-I-I
I-I-I-I-I-I


I can’t (I) wait no (No more) more (No)
Since you went away
I don’t really feel like talkin’ (No)
Don’t wanna hear them bug me (No, no)
Tell me do you understand me
I can’t do but be without you


It’s been too long and I’m lost without you (Now tell
what I’m gonna)
What am I gonna do, I’ve been needin’ you, wantin’ you
(Yeah)
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine (Yeah, yeah), I wanna cry
sometimes (Ooh...)


I miss you (Baby)


It’s been too long and I’m lost without you (Oh, no,
no, no)
So what am I gonna do, I’ve been needin’ you, wantin’
you (Whoa)
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
(Hey...)
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes (Oh,
no, baby)


I miss you


It’s been too long (Oh, yeah) and I’m lost without you
So what am I gonna do (No, no) I’ve been needin’ you,
wantin’ you (Baby)
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

Try

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

Growing a day older ... by grams.

Nevertheless, the tot of raising animals especially from kittens would seem easier than nurturing an infant to a child ...

Where did that thout actually came from .... derrr!

Waking up in between hours ....
Putting up with screams of hunger ....
Excessive meowing from bunny ....

But all that stops when the feeding is done ...
And it continues again till they are all fed and warmed up.... again.

Another 4weeks ....
Before the tinypaws find their way to satiate ...
They are disposing their waste voluntarily, which is an initial stage of growth.

Feeding Time ....

Gato is a screamer ... he screams wen he's in hunger

Kiki hanging on dearly to her bottle

Quiesce

Become quiet or quieter ...

Some things are worth not saying ....
Some actions are just worth avoiding ...
Friends turning into foe
Families furiously at feud

I turn my hurt to ignorance
My pain into silence
Sufferings non-existence
Presence no longer ...

You see me, as you see me ...
I'll turn my world into my convenience comfort ...
Where people are no longer my comrades.

Scathe

One can't imagine the difficulty of another ...
Assuming that the puzzle put together, is more worst than theirs.

What's the comparison all about ...
Emotion is weighed at a different level of suffering and heartache.
Whatmore if the cause was consolidated from a growing child into an adult.
What...?! a journey to sail thru.

Every living being walked the path of hardship and suffering ...
What's without it if none of us were to put thru it ...
Not to be hurt, is inevitable...
To heal, is the painful part of it all ...