Blue

I am feeling abit down ....
Not that I am upset or anything ...

Just ... in a reminiscence mode
My time in saudi ..

Fasting month is approaching ...
The best month in year round.
Can't wait ...

For many reasons, why I am so looking forward for it to arrive.
I'm making my possible attempts calling TA n embassy to make an
unfeigned intention come true.

God, help me.
For only YOU can.

Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Mirror Image

"he studied his reflection in the mirror"

A remark expressing careful consideration

"Do I see me?", he asked.
"Very well, indeed", he spoke in his fashionably tone.

Do I see me?
I would ask tht to myself, sometimes ...
What do I see in me tht others' don't?
And, what does others' sees in me, tht I don't?

Why do I not see my own reflection in others' point of view?
And, what is it, in their point of view tht I don't see the clarity of their judgement?
And, why do many judge many others' from the way they look?

Why, do they not bother to make time to know each other?
Why, do they not bother to spend time to know one another?

Some remarks passed, are worth pondering
And for some, it just a waste of time.
I wish I could see me to correct me.
I wish, those I see in others' could be a learning experience for me too.

Rather than, making a pass
And making a fool of myself.
I learn and should learn to look away n take a good look at myself.

Only Time

Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time...

And who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Only time...

(interlude)

Who can say why your heart sighs,
As your love flies?
Only time...

And who can say why your heart cries,
When your love dies?
Only time...

(interlude)

Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be,
In your heart.

And who can say when the day sleeps,
If the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart...

(long interlude)

Who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Only time...

And who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time...

Who knows?
Only time...

Who knows?
Only time...

Hey Delilah

Hey theyre Delilah
Whats it like in New York City
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square cant shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
dont you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
close your eyes
listen to my voice its my disguise
Im by your side

Ohhh, its what you do to mee
Oh, its what you do to me (x2)
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are gettin hard
but just beleive me girl
some day i'll pay the bills with this guitar
we'll have it good
we'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say,
if every simple i wrote to you
would take your breath away
I'd write it all.
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Ohhh, it's what you do to mee
Oh, it's what you do to me (x2)

A thousand miles seems pretty far
but they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way.
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because
we know that none of them have felt this way

Delilah I could promise you
that by the time that we get through
the world will never ever be the same
and you're to blame
Hey there Delilah
you be good and dont miss me
2 more years and youll be done with schooland
I'll be making history like
I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah heres to you,
this ones for you

Ohhh, it's what you do to me
Oh, its what you do to me (x2)
Waht you do to me
Oh oh oh oh etc

Letters ...

She's been reading all those letters she sent.
Bringing her back into that memory lane.
She wishes she could change most of what she have said.
So, she can bring him back, to be here, with her back again.

Some things are best left unsaid.
To avoid angers and feelings unchange.

Why and why and why ...
Can it not be restore, help and change
So we can be better to each other again.

So, she said these words to him ...

"I love you, my baby ...

I am sorry, so sorry ... There's no one else I see myself with but ..

Can we ... pls ...

....

I love you.

love, yur princess"

She thought she got him and he got her
Going stronger
And ...
No matter what happens ... will always pull through, together and forever ...

Not all love story comes to a good end.

But she still believes ... burning that flame for him.

Keeping you close to mine ...

Keeping you close to mine ..

Burning the flame alive.

The Way I Are

For listening pleasure ....

[Verse 1: Timbaland]
I ain't got no money
I ain't got no car to take you on a date
I can't even buy you flowers
But together we'll be the perfect soulmates
Talk to me girl

[Bridge: Keri Hilson]
Oh, baby, it's alright now, you ain't gotta flaunt for me
If we go there, you can still touch my love, it's free
We can work without the perks just you and me
Thug it out 'til we get it right

[Chorus: Keri Hilson & (Timbaland)]
Baby if you strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are
(I'm about to strip and I want it quick
Can you handle me the way you are?)
I don't need the cheese or the car keys
Boy I like you just the way you are
Let me see ya strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like, I like, I like

[Verse 2: Timbaland]
I ain't got no Visa
I ain't got no Red American Express
We can't go nowhere exotic
It don't matter 'cause I'm the one that love you best
Talk to me girl

[Bridge 2: Keri Hilson]
Oh, baby, it's alright now, you ain't gotta flaunt for me
If we go there, you can still touch my love, it's free
We can work without the perks just you and me
Thug it out 'til we get it right

[Chorus: Keri Hilson & (Timbaland)]
Baby if you strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are
(I'm about to strip and I want it quick
Can you handle me the way you are?)
I don't need the cheese or the car keys
Boy I like you just the way you are
Let me see ya strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are

[Verse 3: D.O.E.]
Baby girl, I don't got a huge ol' house I rent a room in a house
Listen baby girl, I ain't got a motorboat but I can float ya boat
So listen baby girl, once you get a dose of D.O.E. you gon' want some mo'
So listen baby girl, when I make it I want you back, want you back, yeah

This Is for you.

Its not what you have in your life that is important, its who you have that is....

My sunflower

Pills...

It either makes you well or it makes you ill.

Pills, it's easy to reach for ...

Depending on the purpose you intent to ...

for sleep

for relaxation

for self satisfaction

for self-indulgence

or for an end of one's chapter.

Vanish

So he left ...

With no words or any qualms.

Left you wondering

Why and what about ...

Promises of empty words.

No guilt or whatsoever.

So, he left.

You faltered downright

No where to find you.

Lived your days through and through.

Walked your life, just like any other

You were, expressionless

You were, notionless

You were, like a living dead person.

Two hours of sleep suffice the body.

Mind at rest.

Heart still beating.

You did nothing,

To heal yourself.

You didn't even walk away.

Nor, did you even cry.

But your thoughts,

Was no where near you.

But left you, wondering ...

In search of nothing.

Help ...

Help?

Help me to help you ...

How is that?

So much has already happened.

Or may i be specific, just that one incident ruin it all.

One said to me before - "Take me for who i am today, not for whom i was yesterday"

True, if the heart says so.

But this heart is not convinced.

My own eyes blinds me ...

My own heart cheats on me ...

To believe, that one changes for better.

How is that?

Truly, how is that?

My heart beats for that only one.

Just that one that is not responding ...

So, help me ... to help you.

Coz, i truly do not know.

Scrap Of my Past

Scrap Of my Past
Still haunts me till now.
Hush away ... but still remains as it is.

It's been a decade, and still ...
Why wouldn't it go away?
I buried you deep down ...
Recondite in historiography

I have to gather guts ...
Constant prayers in thoughts ...
Seeking protection from God
To have you there, face to face.

I feel fearful, having you in my thoughts.
Whatmore, in sight.

I'm sorry we can't friends.
Not now, not anymore.
I don't see you as you are ...
For I wish, but I just coudn't.

I wish you well ...
I really do.
You made it this far ...
This well.

Good for you ...
Good on you ...
Take care and your well being.

I did Nothing today ... but SURF.

Time really flies...
Just not long ago, my apartment was looking bright with so much light from outside.
And now, my lamp shade by the sofa that was on 24/7 together with the kitchen light ... shadows my living area.

All I did was, sitting at the same spot surfing my net.
The only time I moved was to go in for shower.
And to put chicle back to his apartment.
Coz, bunny is having a blast attacking chicle.
Poor chic!
Len will kill me for letting her child being traumatise by bunny.

Oh, wat a day ...
I've never seen my cats sleeping this much in my entire time having them around.
All I know, I can sleep for hours and probably get up the following day.
Hmmm... some competition going on.

Gone

What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone


There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hint and walk away
'Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone

What you see's not what you get
What you see's not what you get
You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already goneI'm already gone
Oh, I'm already gone, gone, gone, gone
Already gone
I'm gone

I bear no grudges ...

I bear no grudges
Don't get me wrong ...
It just some things that wasn't made clear to me.
I don't wish to prolong it.
Not now, not anymore.

A year and a half has passed.
Many more days yet to come.
So lets' call it quits.
From now, from then and forever.

I will help you just this once, and for final.
And the condition that I mentioned, still stands.
And the rest is up to you.

When a trust Is broken ...

My heart hurts immensely, when a trust is broken.
When trust is broken ... it is the end to a relationship, friendship.
It snaps any ties tht binds together, doesn't matter how long, doesn't matter how close.

I am sorry to those I have hurt ...
I am sorry for those whom I have to say my goodbyes to.
I'm sorry, forgiveness is the best I can offer.
I am sorry I do not wish to carry on with this burden.

I hope you know who you are, tht can forgive me too.
If I have offended you in anyway.

I meant no harm.
I cherish those times we spent.
I never expect any returns.
All that I did for you, was sincere.
And now, I think I know ..
This friendship wasn't meant to be long term.

Good to know you ...
Never take things for granted ...
And never take advantage wht's laid infront of you and open for you ...

Forgiveness ...

My friend once told me,
forgiveness is the best medicine to set the heart free from wickedness and ill towards others'

Seek forgiveness from God
And, Insyallah ...
The weight that's weighing you down will lift your spirit to live your life in a greater aspects.

Forgive those you've hurt you ...
Forgive those who bear grudges against you...
Forgive those who has ill heart against you ...
And above all, forgive yourself for the things tht only you know tht made you feel less and down for whatever that you cannot keep up to or fullfill what you shud have in the past.

I've learnt alot for that short period of time being around her.

And am I putting tht into practice ...
Sometimes I do ...
And sometimes ...
God forgive me..
Give me the strength to be forgiving and less temperament.
Give me the courage to face this life with strength, patience and courage.
And above all, keeping my faith together.

A phonecall I wish I cud make ...

Sometimes, I wish I could just pick up my phone and make a call to God.
Ask him questions of why ..
Tell him things all of that of todays'
Make my qualms..
Throw a fit ...
Cry ...

And above all, thanked him for everything and many mores.
I just wish ...

I want HIM to speak to me ..
Help me decide ...
Give me an answers that I can hear ...
Definite reasons and make it clear.

I just wish ...
God, why do answers come later ...
Why can't it be now ..

C-Cups

Irresistible ...

This was a fine selection of sweet Tease for a after- dinner party that was organised by a gd friend.

Of coz, menu was carefully planned out ...

Starter Choice :

Avocado & prawns accompanied with a selection of garden salad and a hint of thousand Island dressing at the side.

Main Course :

Shredded Chicken sauteed with bell pepper and onion, then stirred into hot shell like pasta with cream base sauce.

To die for ...

Sweet Tease :

A selection luscious of c-cups to choose from a gallery pink box with lacy ribbon finishing ...

CCup Signature
Tempt Me Not
Black Tie Event
Green With Envy
Isle Love U
Buried Zest
Tickle Me Pink

And of coz ...

With Sisha at the side ...

Carefully selected a Choice of Fine range of Flavoured Tobacco from Middle Eastern, Naif Road.

Double Apple

Or

Green Grapes

With A Hot Tea to settle the food and park the ass to warm up the cushion. Nice ...

What they don't know, wouldn't hurt ...

What a cliche'
A person and two ...
We sat down to have coffe
Talking about boyfriend's and the one to be.
We agreed on alot
Stuff that only a selfish mind would like.
Funny, when one of them passed a remark like this
"What they don't know, wouldn't hurt"
I totally agree
Why can't many play smart
Why only the fools get caught
Some of us can carry on denying
Playing the innocence
But behind that unveiled mask
Many of us has been a victim to those, who of an innocence act.