Not ever ...

I'm lost for words ...
For whatever I have to say for now.
But the answer is clear, for whatever tht has already happened before.

I am not backing down.
Not now, not before and not ever.
Traits one inherit
And habit acquired.

Once bitten, a million times shy ...

Chicken porridge for the soul ...

I was down wif gastric pain ...
It's been ages since I got that pain. But the feeling wasn't unfamiliar.
I've mastered the level of abdominal pains ...
Tell the signs and I know what they are ...
From gastric to appendices way to ulcers ... and now with chronic pancreatitis ...

My tolerance to pain ... no one can tell tht I am in excruciate pain.
Not unless when my pancreas kicks in ...
That is so unbearable, it jams my movement right from the knee ... and many more.
Its worst than an Ouch.

I was feelng for porridge ...
As usual I don't stock my kitchen not unless if I have visitors that as well, could be, maybe ...
I'm not a rice fan, but I do have rice in smallest ever packaging tht I can purchase in.
And of coz ... it's when I'm in need most of tht somethg, I never find it.
But I have brown rice ... so I thought ... I could do a brown rice porridge, why not?! more healthier than white.

Yeah ... definitely! It didn't work ...
It looked like burnt oats or maybe tiny cooked maggots ... gross!
My heart sank ... for all that I have to waste.
Scrambling through kitchen cupboards, as usual ... hoping to find for somethg light and easy to swallow without chewing ...
Yes ... i did find somethg ... a potato leek soup in a can, mind you! still edible ...
Heated up some and went to bed.
Christy called ... told her my woeful plight ... in attempt to cook porridge and how unsucessful tht ended.
And of coz ... my christy saved the day " i'll cook you yur porridge and bring it over".
Nice .... I am so grateful to God for blessing with wif great fren.

And there she came, poured my porridge in a bowl, scrambling in my kitchen looking for a spoon and fighting wif my cats getting them out of her way. My kittens can be annoying many times when preparing food.
Chicken porridge ... yumm ....
It was the best food I had for the past 8 days.
Feels better now. Gastric is gone ...
Cats are calm. I'm relax.
Thx babe ... appreciate all of it. Thx, once again!
xxx

Feeling Exhausted ...

Just got back from a seven day trip.
From far east to australiasia. Why not?!
It's been more than a yr and a half since i've done long trips like this ...
I can feel 'cracks', split headaches and fatigue overwhelming ...

Probably age is catching up or maybe doing this job for too long.
Of coz, with sydney freezing temperature make matters even worse.
A crew wif running nose ... catched up with 6 others', incl. myself.
What a trip ...

My final sector came ...tht was a relief! Knowing tht the trip is coming to an end. Thk God!
I miss my lovely cats ...
My head was in constant play over record ...
Thinking about my kittens, esp. kiki going into the washing machine and got locked by barnie.
My heart was so jumpy ... worried i might find one of kittens rotten overdone for a week and Diana knew not of it!

The moment I open my door, I was greeted by all of them.
Relief!
They are all alive and jumping. Of coz, abit grown and barnie still as fat as i left him the last time.
Gave them their wet food, their treat for once a week ...
And a little let loose at the corridor.

Lovely day ... *smiles...