PRAYER

I woke up this morning and said 2 prayers. Chris is not religious.... However I felt the need to. First prayer was for myself. To have strength to face today's second review. I am happy to announce to the world I am a full fledged Purser now. Yipeeeeee..... I am waiting to get some days off and I am going to buy my first 10% Business Class ticket and go somewhere. Anywhere! Hooray!!!

Second prayer was for a little soul that never had a chance to be formed. Her sms greeted me...."It's done". Got out of bed with a heavy heart. I pray the little soul is in heaven now. May this little soul have eternal happiness with God. If reincarnation exist, I hope the next life will be better.

Chinese believes that life starts in the mother's womb. Does the little soul know what was coming at the start of the whole process? Does the little soul have any feeling? My personal happiness is marred by these morbid thoughts that cloud my mind.

I just want to say to this little soul whom I would have loved to meet had the circumstances been different.... Please do not blame your mummy....Right up to actually doing the abortion, she was still changing her mind. She really wanted to keep you had the circumstances been different. She has a little picture of you as a little lump in her womb. She even thought of and imagined what you would have looked like. We both agreed you would have been one cute pan-asian baby. She will always remember you. So will I.

While I mourn at this lost of not having a chance to actually meet you, I do understand why things have to be this way. The real world is a harsh one where we have to make decision based on practical reasons. You will understand one day. I hope. Please forgive her for her decision. You have been and will always be loved and remembered.

I can only pray that you are now in the warm embrace of God now that you have left mummy's womb. Aunty Christine will always remember you in her prayers. Kisses...

Posted by Chris at 5:53 PM